Demon I didn't think could call again

I had a plan of what I was going to talk about....

I was wrong...

I have to write this in letter form, and it is meant for a very special friend....

Dear NS,

I'm sorry! I have always let you down. This weekend has let me revisit my biggest act of treason, and it was committed against you. A patron went missing for the last two weeks, went walk about. I have went looking for him, but last night when I got off work I had my one shiftie, and I was sticking to my personal rule of just one. H just got off work and being one of newest members of the tribe I couldn't let him drink alone. I ordered one more and as soon as I did, Konrad walked in, the gentleman that had been missing. And NS, I can say this to you, God spoke to me or I for a moment understood why He created me. I had to help Konrad. I quickly called GB, the familie's point of contact. He was the one who initially informed me of Konrad missing. GB and I chased him down the street to another bar, called the police, and had him committed. I know I helped saved his life, but was reminded of you. I thought we promised each other that, that would stay between us and dead, NO MENTION OF IT AGAIN!!! That was our promise. Then why do I have to relive betraying you? Konrad is safe, he doesn't have the network you had/have, so I am praying for him.

But this is my apology to you. The night you showed up at my door hungry and lost, it was the biggest answer to prayer. MO looked at me and said I had to protect you and make the right discussion, and I did. But after the night you cut your eye and we were betrayed by our chain of command, I had promised to never let you down. Turning you over to the staff at the hospital absolutely and completely crushed my soul, it was like turning you over to the chain of command all over again. I know I visited you everyday, it was my penance, and I still don't feel forgiven. I would never have changed my decision, even if I had to do it over again, but it doesn't change the guilt. I think of you everyday, hoping you found happiness. I am sorry.

God blessed me just by knowing you, crossing your path. May everyday you have from here be better than the one before. I love you.