Day 1 Won't lie -- I'm a little scared

Please let me start by saying...E this rhino found his feet again.

I was raised that a man should never talk of himself, that his reputation should proceed him. So as the days go on and I get more comfortable at this I hope to loosen up a bit.

Ok, I have kept journals before just to organize my thoughts, but this is for everyone to read. My exit from the Navy was a very rocky one, though I still left with honors. No one could believe that someone like me could ever have PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), and I couldn't either for that matter. It took me years of struggling before I checked myself into the VA on suicide watch. I had hit rock bottom yet again and was ready for the pain to end. If it wasn't for my dedication to those I love and served with, this site would not exist. For anyone out there who hasn't heard of PTSD, welcome.

When I talk about my PTSD, I will refer to my "demons", the triggers and lack of self esteem that swirl together to let me know that I am completely inadequate. I see myself as a shepherd, one who protects those around me and the ones that I love. That is why I joined in the military in the first place. I come from a long line of those who have served our country proudly, and wanted to be a proud member of that lineage. I didn't realize that joining would come at such a great cost.

Throughout this entire project I will attempt to refer to everyone who suffers from PTSD as a warrior, that is how we came up with forgotten warriors. These very deadly demons do not discriminate between gender, age, race, or any other difference that we identify. These demons attack at the worst possible time and are relentless in their pursuit of tearing me down.

If you want to share please feel free to. If you would like to watch and see how others deal with their struggles please do. Know that this is for every warrior who struggles and fights their demons.